[Free Time - Siegfried]

I was just about to leave my room when I heard something through the wall… someone singing. I listened for a few seconds, confused, until I remembered that my next door neighbor was the Ultimate Operatic Tenor. It was weirder that I hadn’t heard him sing yet.

I hesitated at his door, not wanting to interrupt the music. It was just scales and arpeggios, I knew that much from my short time in piano lessons, but he could make them sound like the most incredible showstopper aria…

The singing stopped for a moment, and I took advantage of the silence to knock quietly. Siegfried frowned as he answered the door.

Siegfried looks worried.
Siegfried
…Could you hear me? Are the walls here so thin…?
Tim grins.
Timaeus
Oh just a little, it wouldn’t wake me up or anything, don’t worry! But your voice is so gorgeous! I just had to come say something–
Siegfried frowns.
Siegfried
…You need not lie to me, Herr Woodworth. I know that my voice, it is… not good.
Tim looks confused.
Timaeus
What? I wasn’t lying! You sound–
Siegfried snaps.
Siegfried
I sound miserable! It’s all wrong! My voice, it– it cracks and wavers in places it has not in years and I know not why!
Siegfried recollects himself.
Siegfried
But, I suppose you could not tell. You do not have such an ear for music.
Tim huffs.
Timaeus
Hey! I was just trying to say something nice!
Siegfried sighs.
Siegfried
I… did not mean it like that, Herr Woodworth. But, baseless compliments do nothing for performers of my level, except to make swelled heads. It is nothing personal.

That was a… less antagonistic response than it could’ve been? I guess it’s tough to get tone across when you’re speaking in your third or fourth language. But I still didn’t expect this kind of a reaction from the guy who’d been soaking up compliments like a sponge from Sal yesterday.

Tim smiles gently.
Timaeus
Alright, yeah, I’m not a professional music critic. But I’d still like to listen to you! Can I come in and just listen? I-if it won’t bother you, I mean!
Siegfried looks confused.
Siegfried
…I suppose? If you insist?

He looked genuinely surprised, but he opened the door for me to shuffle inside.

His room was extremely clean and orderly, and the shelves in the walls were filled with books, like mine. Instead of novels, though, they were librettos for dozens of operas– The Magic Flute, Barber of Seville, Lohengrin, Otello, and many more I’d never heard of before. I sat in the desk chair, figuring he probably stood up to practice anyway.

He seemed a little nervous about my presence, and wouldn’t look at me as he began to sing, instead checking his posture carefully in the mirror on the closet door. Once he got started, though, he slowly lost himself in the music as his voice soared through warmup after warmup.

I got lost in it too– when he stopped suddenly and turned to look at me, it felt like someone had shoved me awake from a nice dream.

Siegfried sighs.
Siegfried
…Es tut mir lied.
Tim looks a little dazed.
Timaeus
Huh…? Why’d you stop?
Siegfried looks away.
Siegfried
You do not want to hear me, ja? Do not stay out of pity.
Tim frowns.
Timaeus
I told you, I don’t know what you’re talking about! I think you sound amazing–

He flinched, almost as if I had slapped him.

Siegfried gets a little upset.
Siegfried
Stop saying that! Tim– you do not understand, it is…
Siegfried growls.
Siegfried
…I think you mean well, Herr Woodworth, but I know how I am supposed to sound. The horrible schrecklich noises I make, it is not that. Saying nice things will not make it better.

So he wasn’t fishing for compliments… he really meant every awful thing he’d said about himself. I didn’t get it. He sang like an angel!

Tim looks worried.
Timaeus
Siegfried… are you, like, okay?

Siegfried yells.
Siegfried
Of course not!
Tim laughs nervously.
Timaeus
M-maybe you’d feel a little better if you sang something for fun? Instead of practicing the same exercises over and over… Just for a bit. Maybe you could sing…